Sanctified update, getting sick of the last journal huh?

May the Blessings of the Lord and Lady shine upon thee.

Lately I'm being exposed to many doubts that make me feel weak. I'm with my friends and I really enjoy it, but lately I'm feeling something weird. Especially towards one of them (I must be sure about this, I’ll let you know in time.).
Anyways, I just had a faith shock experience yesterday. As a Pagan I possibly hated the One God because of the evil doings of the church. But yesterday, a friend of mine just showed us the most beautiful face of that God. And I was really confused. After lotta thinking and feeling that famous swirl of doubts and confusion, I realized something:

Since 2003 I'm pagan, not much time you'll say.
Ever since I dedicated my heart and soul to the Goddess, all good things I hadn’t before…Now I have and felt them. I met what is being really protected by the Heavens, I met friends. I never had really good friends before. I learnt more things that I would never learn. I love Nature more than I thought, and I didn't liked it before. The little mammals are more friendly towards me (and I hope that it isn't any hormonal problem Oo).
And Mother Earth is a Mother. And She loves us all.
That friend of mine showed me the most beautiful side of God. He's the Star and there's a wall. And we are the little candle that illuminates the wall that He created. HE doesn’t have any physical form. We are His eyes and ears, and through us He beholds his Creation. Father Sky loves us all too, inside His Laws we're protected by His angels. But I love too much Mother earth for a drastic change.
I can't change my faith from one day to another that would be unwise and stupid. But thanks to that friend I understand now the real Nature of the One God. There's no need to talk to Him by priests, there's no need to go to a church to praise Him. If there's Mother Earth, there's Father Sky and He's everywhere. I respect Him and I believe in His existence. I'll let get Him inside my heart as I Embraced the Goddess, but in time to time. But above Him, there's the Goddess. And I'll return to her Womb when my time comes.

But still... There are more things that I can't understand, the other swirl of feelings...

And it's what I have to say about this. Sorry if I bothered you with this little speech but I wanted to share my experience. Hope this will help you if you're in faith wars inside your heart.

EDIT! Aaaand tagged me, so there goes!

RULES
1. post these rules
2. each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves.
3. those tagged should write a journal about these facts.
4. at the end post 8 more bloggers tagged and name.
5. go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged.

1 - Eccentric, I'm very eccentric IRL. With flamboyant mannerism I try to spread joy around the world. And waht I gather from that? The non-approval gaze of my friends when I'm doing something weird. But I still do them just for annoying!

2 - I believe en faeries. YESH, I believe in the Little poeple, the Summer and Winter Courts (Seelie and Unseelie). I believe in the Glamour of the World and Arcadia. I believe in the Dreaming, one of the few ways fot the faeries to live. Whenever I listen a child saying "I don't believe in faeries", I kick his or her ass (Well, not that, but I say, hey don't say that!). Thanks to that way of thinking, they die. >.>;;

3 - I'm pagan!, Possibly you know that. *looking at the Goddess piece in gallery* I believe in Mother Earth and Father Sky. From them I make my own magic and I make my prayers. And They answer me in case of need.

4 - I love harps. I F!CKING love harps. WhenI listen to a harp song, I try to play an invisible harp. Weeee I'm insanely crazy for having a harp...

5 - I go to Word Reference page to know what does mean a certain word, when I have a complete dictionary behind my desk.

6 - When I want something, I MUST have what I want. If not, I'll start to bother you with the same theme until I get what I want, or when you'll kill me. Obviously that you can't kill me because I'm immortal and you're not, BWAHAHAHAHAHAHHH!!!!

7 - When I'm working, I sing Loreena McKennitt songs. Very loudly and almost like a Contratenor. And then , people nicely ask me to don't sing. And I with good manners and education I SING LOUDER!!!!!! BTWI sing badly like a Banshee with throat problems.

8 - I always wished for a ery silky loong hair, but NOOOOOOOOOO. Friggin' Parents ADN blessed me with a doomed afro-like hair. Only grows upwards and "sidewards"(LOL?). I wanna have long silky hair, like the elves! XD

Now, I'm sealing this dark ritual with the sign of the Condemned, aka to:



Now go my minions, be my sacrifice, spread the plague of taggness!!!!! *Laughs insanely crazy*



Advancing through 2008: Omg Points are stopped but not forgotten tasks:

Driving: To lose fear of driving cars! Driving license for 2 years and didn't drove in ages.
Beauty: Take out from my deepest being my Inner beauty: I'll work both body and Mind to please myself and others; EDIT - Working on it!
New Job: I really need a new way to win my money without pissing me off inside that doomed warehouse. EDIT - looking for it!
Save money: You'll never know when you'll need money to save your life; EDIT - In process, and it's damn hard.
Love: among my friends I wish harmony, no discussions please; This one is continuous effect :3
Fortune: Not necessarily money, but I want my family and friends to be prosperous people;
Health: It's so friggin' nice to hang out with ur folks without a fever stopping you;
Success: Edit the book that my Friend Jan is writing: Hollow Hate (Rosa dels Vents);
Charisma: More magnetism, less stupidity;
Travelling: Visit Barcelona, Visit a really good friend in Gerona, Visit Whisper in Croatia, geez! EDIT: This one only gets updated if I have money enough to travel.
And this one, Feelings, more feelings, but I'm unsure of what I'm feeling. I'm so damn confused...



Worklist: (the "Oh noes" points are dead projects waiting for rebirth)

My Vampire: the Masquerade Character: Mateus Duncan, Toreador XD;
Remember my MtG Characters in mah gallery from 2004? I'm doing the 2007 version, if not 2008 or 2009... (they're 10 character geez):'( EDIT - Working on it, and being my characters, based on MtG, but all mine! XD
2 requests of a friend: Azrael (Angel of Death) AND the Goddess as the Druids see Her...
Why not? ’s Character. That’s beauty, that’s vanity, that’s Grace. Is Drachea Rannak, an awesome artist! I demand you to click his avatar and visit his gallery; he deserves your visit and awe!
Character designs of a new book, finished by one of my friends, waiting for a review from the editor. The book name’s at the moment is Hollow Hate, and in the book each character that belongs to the Rosa dels Vents (Points of the Compass, literally translated).A crew of Sky Pirates that live in a world where water it’s almost a legend. There are no oceans but it’s a sky world filled with floating continents. In the book I am Notus, a water pirate from another world of existence were a cosmic energy rules the multi-universe. We call it mana, and I am a Blue Mage that uses water and air magic.

At the moment in my gallery there are Hollow Hate, Jack Hunter, Casian, Notus and Luyan. Only remain Rykkiu, Aesur, Lyra and moar moar moar MOAR, I’ll edit this later!

Blessings of the Lord and Lady for you my dear watchers!



Clubs, you don't know when you'll need them XD

And hoping to enter in more clubs XD